Now why don’t he write…?


Okay….here’s the situation…as you know I have been going through a LOT over the last bit of time, and I have been trying HARD to overcome it all…no…really…I HAVE.

So…how to paraphrase this so that I take up less of your time and make the situation clearer….

Well..they say that the best way to start is at the beginning…

So, I lost my home in Scotland and had to move to America again…this you all know…then my baby Hazelnut Butterpig passed….then I lost my beloved Rincewind, and a LOT of people I had been caring for at the other job, including a couple of people I had really gotten to know and love….and it really hit me hard. I sunk into depression, and even went to “The Dark Place” in my mind, as it were, and was starting to give up….then, when I was just coming through to where I was able to process things slowly, my beloved friend and Bishop passed away.

Well, needless to say, it really threw the curve ball at me.

The problem is that I had LEGAL things to see to. Was my Ordination ended? Did God say “Okay…you are retired” …!?!?!? So…I am still working through the Legal aspect of this problem… am I still Friar Jeff?…or am I just JEFF….??? (BTW: still sorting this out)

Without a Church to be affiliated with (because he was the head of the church, as it were), does my Ordination end?

So, as you see, while trying to sort out the MENTAL side of my life, I am struck down with the LEGAL side as well…so…you see…I felt I did not have the RIGHT to be your cleric till this is resolved.

There are legal precedence to consider, lawsuits that could ensue…etc….and I am quite incapable of having LEGAL issues to add to the pile.

I am not avoiding social media…just trying to determine what, when, where, how…and more importantly, WHO I am in the grand scheme of things.

Hence why I have been off lately.

There may be some who say “He abandoned us”…or that I do not care anymore…FAR FROM IT.

I care enough to know that I cannot help THEM without first helping myself.

After all, how can I counsel those in need if I myself am in more dire and darker situations? (That, and the fact that it may send me over the edge as well)

NEVER think for a minute I do not care…for you, my friends, mean more to me that the entire world.

I just want to be sure I can BE, not just ‘be’, there for you all.

I really AM trying, but as anyone who suffers from severe depression, PTSD, and physical tribulations can tell you, it is NOT as easy as it seems when they all gang up on you and decide to stomp you into the ground.

So…we are all in this boat together, and I am looking at the charts to see where we are, even though I am a bit lost as well.

So I will keep you all updated as I can and make sure you all understand it takes time…and only God knows the length of that.

Peace be with you all…




“When the Magi had departed, behold, the angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, “Rise, take the child and his mother, flee to Egypt, and stay there until I tell you. Herod is going to search for the child to destroy him.”

Joseph rose and took the child and his mother by night and departed for Egypt.

He stayed there until the death of Herod, that what the Lord had said through the prophet might be fulfilled, “Out of Egypt I called my son.”

When Herod had died, behold, the angel of the Lord appeared in a dream to Joseph in Egypt and said, “Rise, take the child and his mother and go to the land of Israel, for those who sought the child’s life are dead.”

He rose, took the child and his mother, and went to the land of Israel.

But when he heard that Archelaus was ruling over Judea in place of his father Herod, he was afraid to go back there.

And because he had been warned in a dream, he departed for the region of Galilee.

He went and dwelt in a town called Nazareth, so that what had been spoken through the prophets might be fulfilled, “He shall be called a Nazarene.” –   Matthew 2:13-15.19-23.


“Asked by the Pharisees when the Kingdom of God would come, Jesus said in reply, “The coming of the Kingdom of God cannot be observed, and no one will announce, ‘Look, here it is,’ or, ‘There it is.’

For behold, the kingdom of God is among you.”

Then he said to his disciples, “The days will come when you will long to see one of the days of the Son of Man, but you will not see it.

There will be those who will say to you, ‘Look, there he is,’ (or) ‘Look, here he is.’

Do not go off, do not run in pursuit.

For just as lightning flashes and lights up the sky from one side to the other, so will the Son of Man be (in his day).

But first he must suffer greatly and be rejected by this generation.” – Luke 17:20-25.



“After Jesus had spoken, a Pharisee invited him to dine at his home.

He entered and reclined at table to eat.

The Pharisee was amazed to see that he did not observe the prescribed washing before the meal.

The Lord said to him, “Oh you Pharisees! Although you cleanse the outside of the cup and the dish, inside you are filled with plunder and evil.

You fools! Did not the maker of the outside also make the inside?

But as to what is within, give alms, and behold, everything will be clean for you.” -Luke 11:37-41.


“As Jesus passed by, he saw a man named Matthew sitting at the customs post.

He said to him, “Follow me.”

And he got up and followed him. 

While he was at table in his house, many tax collectors and sinners came and sat with Jesus and his disciples.

The Pharisees saw this and said to his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

He heard this and said, “Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do. 

Go and learn the meaning of the words, ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’

I did not come to call the righteous but sinners.” -Matthew 9:9-13.



“Brothers and sisters: You are no longer strangers and sojourners, but you are fellow citizens with the holy ones and members of the household of God, built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the capstone. 

Through him the whole structure is held together and grows into a temple sacred in the Lord; 
in him you also are being built together into a dwelling place of God in the Spirit.” -Ephesians 2:19-22. 



“Brothers and sisters: Through faith you are all children of God in Christ Jesus.

For all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ.

There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free person, there is not male and female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus.

And if you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s descendant, heirs according to the promise.” -Galatians 3:26-29.


Why THIS medium?? Well, considering how more and more people are turning to the internet for answers, and many faiths seem to be losing people from the pews, the internet seemed the OBVIOUS choice for helping others find their faith again.

Now, do not read into this…I am NOT trying to change ANYONE’s faith, I am simply trying to lead them BACK to whatever faith they fell away from.

I have seen many who “got lost through the cracks” in many religions for whatever reason…..divorces, bad childhoods, societal pressures, or they were just plain trampled down by so much that when they DID think about faith, they were either too embarrassed, or too scared, to return to it.

I am here to tell you that this is not so…God (or whatever deity you prefer) WANTS those people to return.  This is the very substance of the parable of The Prodigal Son. (Luke 15:11-32)

If someone LEAVES their faith, lives their lives and then RETURNS to their faith, are we as clerics not supposed to REJOICE?? Does not it say in Luke 15:3-7 that we (the shepherds of His flock) should REJOICE when one lost sheep returns to the fold??

This is the very substance of my Ministry here online…to help those “lost sheep” find their way back.  They may have emotional, mental, psychological, or spiritual problems…but is not that ALSO what we are supposed to do for The Shepherd?? Help them sort those problems out so that their faith FLOWS back into them???


So, this is “My Mission”….