…I BURIED MY BROTHER TODAY…

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…Not a brother, as in blood or marriage, but a brother nonetheless….

I only knew him about a year and a half, and watched as he bloomed from a shy, scared, and reclusive soul into a vibrant, glowing, loving and friendly one.

His passing leaves a hole in my heart, but a patch in my faith.

Now some may say “It was just a rabbit”…WRONG…there is NEVER such a thing as “just”…if we can label things like that, then we ourselves will be labelled thus as well… it was JUST a person…JUST a man…JUST a woman…JUST a child.

This label would detract from the loving and gentle soul I saw bloom in my brief care.

When I first got him, he was shy…not wanting to be touched or held… staying always just out of arms reach.

Patience, love, tenderness, and kindness brought him out of that shell

He learned to LOVE being held, petted, talked to, and played with.

Never in my life have I saw eyes of his beautiful blue go from fear of being touched to the warm soft look he would give me as he fell asleep in my arms whilst I stroked his ears and head.

My brother was fun-loving, and kind to the other friends and companions in my house.

He never once bit, or attacked, scratched or kicked any of them…he was truly a gentle soul of patience and kindness.

When my beloved Bobby was unable to walk or run, Billy would sit near him, nuzzle him, and clean his ears and nose…

This is the kind of soul needed in today’s world…one that loves freely, cares deeply, and does not care if they are black or white, red or brown…but simply loves for the sake of being a soul.

Billy leaves behind a grieving set of parents who already miss the loving nuzzle of him when he wanted to be picked up…

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Billy loved to be outside, for I understand this was something he was not used to in his life before we came to know him.

When we found him in the adoption centre my wife immediately fell in love with him…this big fluffy ball of white fur with the sad blue eyes.

The carer took him out of the area, placed him in her arms, and when she looked into his eyes she said “I want him”

I, of course, was a bit more pragmatic..I asked the carer “Why was he surrendered?” …the carer, without hesitation, said “He got ‘too big’ they said”.

Both the wife and I shared a look at each other, knowing the rising anger inside of us both and she said “How can ANYONE toss aside something THIS beautiful!?!?”…

We rode home with him, his head nestled against the palm of her hand in his carrier, and he became our brother.

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He passed yesterday…quite suddenly…almost without warning or herald.

We had rushed him to the vet, because he had stopped eating, and before we left he placed his head on my arm and hand, the way he was want to do, as if to say “It will be okay…I am loved, warm, happy, and yours”….he had his favourite pink blanket with him, the one he took to on his first day…his comfort blanket…his favourite toy and bed.

4 hours later the vet called to say he had passed.

The part that hurts the most was the vet had said she went in there to check on his progress and when she opened up the door to his pen he lifted his head up off of that blanket and put his head in her hand.

She said he looked directly into her eyes as if to say “Pass this to my family, for I cannot”…and he passed there in her arms with his head on her arm and hand.

I wrapped him in his favourite blanket last night for his final journey. I could not let him enter Heaven without his comfort blanket and his play blanket…the same blue one he went to the vet with the first time we had to take him in for his examination a month after he moved in with us.

He would chase that blue blanket around the house…me with the dragging it behind, and him belting after his shaking his long floppy ears and pouncing on the end….

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Tears of love almost blinded me digging his grave next to our beloved Poppy and Bobby… knowing that somewhere ‘up there’ he was racing around with the corner of that blue blanket firmly clamped in his teeth and shaking his long floppy ears.

I held it together, nearly, until I had blessed the ground and the remains…but seeing his little wrapped body inside of that blue and pink blankets broke me…and the tears did not stop for many minutes.

I will have to carve his marker…I will carve it, my wife will paint it, and I will varnish it, and we will place it so that the world will know a beloved soul is now at rest away from this world of woe.

He had love, freedom (he was NEVER in a hutch or cage in MY house), warmth, food, treats, and all of the loving cuddles he asked for and wanted.

Now some may think it wrong to pray over a departed companion, and some may also say that it is a sin to…but you know what I say to that?

If they cannot shed tears for something that showed PURE LOVE, and PURE selflessness, then THEY HAVE NO SOUL INSIDE OF THEIR HUMAN BODY.

..I buried my BROTHER today..and one day if I am worthy, I will see my beloved Billy, Bobby, and Poppy in those same happy fields of my Master’s Realm.

Requiescat In Pace, sweet William…till we meet again, my brother.

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21 thoughts on “…I BURIED MY BROTHER TODAY…

  1. Cara Davis says:

    My Prayers are with you all for be they human ,fur or feather His energy will be missed by every being in your home ..What a wonderful gift you all were to each other .Hes is in good care on the bridge with Queen Bona

  2. stoddstrader says:

    Good bye sweet soul. Love.

  3. isy64 says:

    I am sorry. I send you my love & hugs across the world. Find comfort in God’s Grace & joyful memories of the Love you shared with your sweet bunny. Love you Friar J.

  4. Kim Burtsfield says:

    We lost our dear Rochelle Joy on January 28. She was pure love in a tiny 1.2 pound body. She is binkying for the first time in heaven, and so is your precious William. Maybe they are playing together. We understand your heartache and we grieve with you. This is a beautiful tribute and we agree with every word, except we know we will see our princess again when we are welcomed into Jesus’ Arms.

  5. Patricia Wanzenried says:

    It seems that God always chooses the best, the sweetest, the most beloved, to call home to Him. Just know he will be there waiting for you, and you will feel whole again. What a reunion we will have in Heaven one day. God bless you.

  6. Maria Appleby says:

    “All things bright and beautiful,
    All creatures great and small,
    All things wise and wonderful,
    The Lord God made them all.”
    (Cecil Frances Alexander, 1848)

    You have a friend in Champaign, Illinois…..that bears you up in your time of hurting. I’m sorry for your loss. Billy was a grand bun-bun, and I am glad he had you, and you had him.

  7. Jan Williams says:

    When our little Timmy was called Home, we shared with someone (whom we didn’t know well) before our church service began, that we were sad because our little son had died, adding that he was a bunny we’d loved so much–and she recoiled from us, exclaiming “But he was just a rabbit!”
    I wept silently for that entire church service because of the pain that unthinking, and cruel, response–brought me! I am someone who KNOWS–that she ‘knows’, that she KNOWS!–that our little Timmy–and the others we’ve loved since–WILL be waiting for us, when we, too, cross into heaven’s glory. Our God knows our ‘hearts’, and has taught us so much about His Love through our little guys. He loves us ‘that much’ to delight us with our little ones’ presence ‘with us’ in eternity!
    We are so sorry that you’ve had to say goodbye too, too soon! What a ‘beautiful’ and ‘touching’ tribute, Friar Jeff, to such a ‘special’ brother. You’ve blessed us so!

  8. Jbot says:

    Been there man.
    These bunnies creep right into your heart. My boy Puppy passed the same way, fast fever and died at the vet.
    He was a brother too, shit man…I miss him so much. Such a special guy. I feel for ya. Just know that there’s so many more that need help out there, all with their own different personalities.
    Sorry for your loss.

  9. Leah says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss… I lost my 10-year-old bunny companion, my sweet son, last December and it broke my heart. I still cry when I remember him giving me bunny kisses, but I know he would not want me to be sad, so I try to remember the beautiful moments he gave me. He was a wise, loving soul. I am so glad Billy enjoyed a happy life just as I hope my baby bunny did with me. May we see them again when we cross the rainbow, too.

  10. Kathy says:

    I have never read anything more touching in my life. I have 6 loving furballs and I am sure that I will feel the same as this family when someday I will have to go through this too. I love all of mine and they ARE family. God bless you for writing this and sharing the love he had for you and your love for him. What a wonderful gift. God bless you both.

  11. Kananika says:

    Sweet bunny! And may Lord bless your bunnies in His Realm, amen.

  12. Julie Cracchiolo says:

    my thoughts and prayers are with you.

  13. BunBun Rwa says:

    To say that Buns are smart
    Goes against the tide
    Yet so emotionally complex
    Clever and full of pride

    Remarks are made
    Oh, so very snide
    I just watch you play
    And let them slide

    Your Joy of living
    Makes life a jubilant ride
    To frolic and binky
    Rhapsody you cannot hide

    I can look forever
    Travel far and wide
    There’s no place I’d rather be
    Than by your side

  14. June Curik says:

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. My daughter lost her beloved bunny,Ellie recently and she is devastated !

  15. BunBun Rwa says:

    I carry him with me
    Every minute of the day
    I close my eyes
    And see him at play

    I feel him with me
    When I am asleep
    I miss him so
    Silently I weep

  16. Andrea says:

    I am very sorry for your loss and I so understand your soul connection. Thank you for giving so much love and care, your little brothers will be resting in peace knowing he left beeing loved and with a family. One day your souls will meet again. Sending a warm hug to you and your family

  17. Fraulein dominguez says:

    I am happy that he was loved by you guys… it’s so sad that he left and so suddenly but know that he was loved makes me happy and proud that there are caring people still in this world. I know he was happy with you guys and god bless…

  18. BunBun Rwa says:

    We, a friendly band of Rabbits
    Who spread Joy out of habit
    Join us, to thine heart be true
    Know life wonderfully new

    If we Rabbits have you friended
    Know this Truth, thy heart is mended
    That you need but shed a tear
    Comes our Joy to oust your fears

    The Door into Summer’s meaning
    Life lived as Joyful dreaming
    Thy heart’s portal opened wide
    Come we ever by your side

    To thee who feel Summer’s call
    Accept our gift to you all
    However be that your life wends
    Live a Summer which never ends

  19. Lalis says:

    Thank you so much for sharing this–it echoed perfectly with loss my family experienced with our first bunny. I, too, hope to meet her and the ones that have come after her when I depart this mortal life.

    I understand your pain and can tell you that the hope of my Lord’s gospel reminds me that one day we will see these beautiful souls again.

    Binky free, Billy.

  20. Gordon MacDonald says:

    Much love to you my friend. I’ve been there several times over the past ten years, and I’m glad to say, it never gets easier. I still love and miss them all. Wonderful creatures, would love to have a day with them all again. Hope the days ease the pain. The scar never fully heals, but that’s what bunnies do to us. We all have bunny scars that never fully heal, but that’s because we love them so much.

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