….I love my life.
Not merely for the fact that I am breathing, or that I am a cleric, but for the sheer fact I am ALIVE.
See, my life is not so different from any other working Joe out there. I have financial concerns, health problems, social discords, altercations in both private and public arenas…but here is the rub… I LET NONE OF THEM GET TO ME…why? (you ask)…because I know that what I do HERE on this mortal coil is only the “staging area” for a better destination.
Now, I am not saying my life is PERFECT or anything….merely that I CHOOSE not to let the woes of the world affect me the way I see them affect others.
Yes, I have a past…yes I have had LOTS of bad things happen to me…but I know that should I let them they will swamp me and I will sink..hence why I choose NOT to.
Worry, as spoken of in my Master’s Word, is NOT a factor in my existence…
“Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life ?
Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?” -Luke 12:25
Worry about money seems to be the big thing I see..I have forsworn money and all that it brings, both the good and the bad…so that eliminates the need for THAT worry. How is this done? (you ask in amazement)…”How can you live without money??” I hear.
Well yes, it DOES present SOME difficulty but not enough to lose my sense of calm over. The wife works, and she works hard for the small amount that comes into our purse..and with this we make WONDERS happen.
I have taken on the role of Domestic Engineer, and handle all the shopping needs (always on a shoestring budget!), I do the laundry, dishes, care of the critters we have, and take my place at her side to work the simple veg patch we have…and yet my Master still finds the time and means for me to be a FULL SERVICE CLERIC for those who look to me for Spiritual Guidance…ask ANY ONE of those in my Parish if they are satisfied with their cleric and the office of duties I perform and see if anyone says a negative thing!
I have always been one to love a challenge, and I also have ALWAYS wanted a simple existence. We do not live beyond our means, we budget CAREFULLY, and we do not go in for flashy things or expensive needs. Food, Clothing, Shelter…that’s pretty much it in this house. And yet, we have more love in our poor standing than most people I know.
We accept what God sends us and we are THANKFUL for each and every scrap. Case and point: Or veg plot. We plant modest crops, take good care of them, and when God wills it we harvest a bountiful crop. It is hard work, as you no doubt have seen by my postings on Facebook, but it is WORTH every shovelful and rake we sink into the earth.
If something BIG has to be bought, then we scrimp, cut corners, and save like demons…and our meals may be the same two or three days in a row, maybe not so much meat as fillers, but we LIVE.
The words of my Master ring in my ears every time I see something flashy, or expensive that I like…
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.” -Luke 12:22b-23
Do I miss these things? The nights out at theater, the fancy meals filled with delicacies? The showy car, or the big TV?? Sure…but if my Master wished me to have them, then I WOULD have them. This is where letting go and letting God have HIS plan for my life rather than MY plan for my life come into play.
I have learned that if I simply TRUST in His plan, in His mercy, and in His Divine Love then ALL I wish for made by the hands of man seems pale by comparison…case and point (again): I have more time to actually WATCH a sunset with my wife…to walk out and see the stars not merely in passing, but actually LOOK at them…and they are more brilliant than anything Hollywood will show me.
If I hunger, then I know HE will ensure I have enough to keep my hunger at bay…or should I need clothes, HE WILL PROVIDE…it just takes TRUST. Sure my clothes are out of date, but does that lessen their function? Sure it is not steak and potatoes at meals, but does that lessen the fact my belly is full? No, I tell you, HE provides what I need WITHOUT me even asking Him.
“Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!” -Luke 12:24
“Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!
And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them.
But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.” -Luke 12:27-31
“But”, you ask, “Are you HAPPY?”
I can say this: I have lived rich, and I have lived poor…yes, I once had a 3 bedroom house, cars, land, wealth…but when I gave it all up to serve Him I admit I missed it BRIEFLY…but I see more love in this simple abode, more FLAVOR in my humble meals, and more joy in my life than I have EVER known.
I am not saying to ditch everything, for that is not for some to follow on THAT path…I am saying if you CAN make do with less… if you CAN do without a new this or that thing…if you CAN wear clothes that are not in fashion but fit into your budget, then DO IT. You will see that your joy is INCREASED by not having to struggle or sweat over the shiny things this world has to offer every season.
Christmas is a good example: I give simple gifts, yet EVERYONE knows they are given with LOVE and JOY from my heart, and not a return receipt…I have yet to give a gift that was not well received even for it’s poor semblance.
So too you can as well…LET GO.. LET GOD have His plan for you and I PROMISE you you WILL see a change in both your self, those around you, and the things you once hold so important take a back seat to what TRULY matters…LOVE…JOY..PEACE… HARMONY…
“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom.
Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys.
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” -Luke 12:32-34