…The hardest thing in this world….

Forgiveness - all within my hands

“Why then did you not keep your oath to the LORD and obey the command I gave you?” – 1 Kings 2:43

As a cleric of God, for the last 6 years on Facebook and two years prior to that elsewhere, I have tried time and time again to aid those who come to my humble office to which I am entrusted.

I have cried peace, tolerance, understanding, love, fellowship, and the Word at the top of my lungs. I did not insert my own personal thoughts into The Word, as those are my Master’s words and not subject to change….however, at certain times I have been sorely tested to just “throw in the towel” because of the things I have seen…people infighting, backbiting, playing games of politics and “click”… this latest round of stupidity has gotten me to the point where I began to doubt my calling there…

See, I usually do not post anything of “politics” or “scaremongering” because I like to keep my page as a peaceful spot for those seeking solace from the woes of the world…but lately, whenever I post certain things…like a political viewpoint I would possibly wish to discuss, or about a deadly new drug that is sweeping the world that eats the very flesh from the bone, I have noticed that I get reported for “Hatespeech” or “Violent/Graphic” content… the site is giving me every opportunity to explain myself, but HAS to do it’s duty with regards to their policy, and I do not complain about that…

What I DO take issue with, however, is the fact that the person/persons reporting these things ARE OF MY OWN PARISH.

It seems if I post ANYTHING that is uplifting, or spiritual, they seem to shout “AMEN!”..but the minute I post something THEY do not approve of, I am reported….now, normally this would not anger me, but when they report the APOLOGY I made because the post was removed shows me only one thing: They are trying to make me into something I AM NOT.

I have spoken out about this time and time again…that I am HUMAN, that I have an OPINION…that my thoughts on a subject or cause are MINE to think..but they do not see it as such.

I received a rather heated message from a family I have been helping for almost 3 years pretty much telling me to keep my trap shut because the issue I spoke out about involved ME, and the fact that I keep getting “hit” for their lack of information… they want me to help them, they want me to comfort them, and to basically be the PR person for their problem, but I am not supposed to say anything…

Here is my crux of the problem: If THEY spoke out and said what the problem IS, then there would BE NO PROBLEM and I would not have to dodge the trolls or questions.

The problems I face are not what others may think… I too have a life, thoughts, problems, issues…but I have to set mine aside to help others. Lately it seems that people want me to be what THEY think a cleric should be, and not what I AM.

I have sacrificed time with my family, every spare minute I am not doing secular duties in the community at large, vacations, holidays, weekends, even sleep to help them with their problems…

So, if anyone noticed, today I posted as a BASIC CLERIC with no “uplifiting” or “soul searching” posts…not very “me” is it..?

I wanted to take this time to say this: “I AM ME, DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE ME JUST AS I HAVE NOT TRIED TO CHANGE YOU”…

GIVE IT UP…YOU CANNOT CHANGE MY FAITH NOR MAKE ME DOUBT MY CALLING!

Who would serve those if I was gone? YOU?!?! I sincerely doubt it…and personally I would not want to be YOU on the day you stand before God and have to explain your actions….

“For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each of us may receive what is due us for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.” -2 Corinthians 5:10

My soul is prepared…how’s yours? (and be HONEST with yourself for once…not simply say “I am saved” for you CANNOT be if you are doing THESE THINGS!)

Do you REALLY THINK that my Master is sitting up there going “way to go” while you shout “AMEN” and then turn around and hurt myself and others?? Sending HATEFUL and CRUEL messages to others behind my back that I cannot see, but HE SEES…when are you going to get it into your heads? HE SEES ALL! He knows your heart, mind, soul…HE KNEW THEM BEFORE YOU WERE BORN!!

My Master had the same problem as myself, you know…

“While Jesus was having dinner at Matthew’s house, many tax collectors and sinners came and ate with him and his disciples.

When the Pharisees saw this, they asked his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.

But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’a For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” -Matthew 9:10-13

AND AGAIN…

“One Sabbath Jesus was going through the grainfields, and his disciples began to pick some heads of grain, rub them in their hands and eat the kernels.

Some of the Pharisees asked, “Why are you doing what is unlawful on the Sabbath?”

Jesus answered them, “Have you never read what David did when he and his companions were hungry?

He entered the house of God, and taking the consecrated bread, he ate what is lawful only for priests to eat. And he also gave some to his companions.”

Then Jesus said to them, “The Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.”

On another Sabbath he went into the synagogue and was teaching, and a man was there whose right hand was shriveled. The Pharisees and the teachers of the law were looking for a reason to accuse Jesus, so they watched him closely to see if he would heal on the Sabbath.

But Jesus knew what they were thinking and said to the man with the shriveled hand, “Get up and stand in front of everyone.” So he got up and stood there.

Then Jesus said to them, “I ask you, which is lawful on the Sabbath: to do good or to do evil, to save life or to destroy it?”

He looked around at them all, and then said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” He did so, and his hand was completely restored.

But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law were furious and began to discuss with one another what they might do to Jesus.” -Luke 6:1-11

I AM ME…not some church bound priest, or some monk hidden away from the world…I have my OWN thoughts, my OWN mind….

If I err it is for MY MASTER to pass judgement on what I do, or say, think….not for those I am here to HELP.

IF YOU WANT A CHURCH PRIEST, THEN GO TO CHURCH! It is not for YOU to pass judgement on what I say or think….judging me by standards that have ALREADY gotten others in trouble IN THEIR CHURCH…

“Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day.

These are a shadow of the things that were to come; the reality, however, is found in Christ.

Do not let anyone who delights in false humility and the worship of angels disqualify you.

Such a person also goes into great detail about what they have seen; they are puffed up with idle notions by their unspiritual mind.

They have lost connection with the head, from whom the whole body, supported and held together by its ligaments and sinews, grows as God causes it to grow.” -Colossians 2:16-19

If things do not STOP, then I shall be forced to concentrate on doing what work I am called to do in the SECULAR community instead of serving those online.

My health, my home, my HAPPINESS has been jeopardised by the amount of strain on my life.

I suffered a stroke…yes..a SERIOUS one in April, and almost ended up BLIND from the amount of stress on myself…yet I carried on without telling anyone, and the rumor mill spun out things like “Oh, when he doesn’t want to talk about something he takes a ‘leave of absence’ because he cannot handle it”….not so…

In the last 8 years I have had only ONE holiday, and THIS YEAR ALONE I have only taken TWO DAYS OFF…I have taken that to heal my body from the results of the stroke.

So, where am I going with this diatribe you ask??

I am tired…tired of seeing people say “AMEN!” to my face, then turn around and whisper and connive behind my back… say “RIGHT ON BROTHER” on my page, but yet secretly plot to get me booted off the site..

If so many wish to still retain the services I offer, it would BEHOOVE you to QUIT TRYING TO RUN MY LIFE…

I have spent this entire day in prayer, and contemplation, to listen for the voice of my Master and what HE wishes of me…

I have come to the conclusion that I can STILL serve Him even if it is not through the medium of a social network site…

I have my own web page, and can answer requests via email…giving up the social network would simply be the SIMPLEST thing..

Were it not for the fact I KNOW there are MANY GOOD PEOPLE there who NEED the simple services of my office, I would have left last MONTH….

I beg you…set aside you petty squabbles…lay down you angers…. drop your bickering, and QUIT trying to run MY life, when you should be getting YOUR OWN in order….

Beginning tomorrow, I will “purge” any who I KNOW to be these people who whisper and secretly seek to harm those around me…

So, if you cannot see my page, you will know that I ALREADY KNOW WHO YOU ARE…and like the proverbial “snake” I will cast you out of my garden…end of story, end of rant….

READING OF THE DAY: 02 OCTOBER, 2013

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“The disciples approached Jesus and said, “Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”

He called a child over, placed it in their midst, and said, “Amen, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.

Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

And whoever receives one child such as this in my name receives me.

See that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that their angels in heaven always look upon the face of my heavenly Father.” -Matthew 18:1-5.10.

SAINT OF THE DAY: 02 OCTOBER, 2013

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The Holy Guardian Angels

God does not abandon to what we call chance, any of His creatures.

By His essence and providence He is everywhere present; not a sparrow falls to the ground, nor a hair from our heads, without His consent.

He is not content, however, with assisting His creation daily and at every moment, with sustaining His handiwork, which without His continuous support would return to dust.

His divine and infinite Love, not only maintaining the existence which He gives and perpetuates in living beings, has charged His Holy Angels with the ministry of watching and safeguarding each one of His rational creatures.

The Angels, divided into nine hierarchies, have varied obligations. Their intelligence and prudence are penetrating like the beam of a lighthouse; so it appears even when we compare it to the best of human intelligences, which are like the light of a little candle in contrast. An Angel, visualizing an end to be attained, sees instantly the means necessary to achieve it, whereas we must pray, study, deliberate, inquire, and choose during many phases of effort, in order to reach our proposed ends.

Kingdoms have their Angels assigned to them; dignitaries of the Church and of the world have more than one Angel to guide them; and every child who enters into the world receives a Guardian Angel.

Our Lord says in the Gospel: Beware lest you scandalize any of these little ones, for their Angels in heaven behold the face of My Father.

Thus the existence of Guardian Angels is a dogma of the Christian faith, based on Holy Scripture itself.

Reflection: This being so, what should our respect be for that holy and sure intelligence, ever present at our side?

And how great should our solicitude be, lest, by any act of ours, we offend those eyes which, without losing the divine vision, are ever turned upon poor creatures in all their ways!

( SOURCE: Little Pictorial Lives of the Saints, a compilation based on Butler’s Lives of the Saints (Benziger Brothers: New York, 1894).)